I've never, ever felt this way before.
It's so crazy and I can't stop smiling about it. About You.
Hi ladies and gents, welcome to Day 3 of this journey.
I think it's safe to say that my day was ...unexpected.
It's ironic: for all my talk about letting God lead the way and la-dee-da-dee-dah, I still very much like to be in control of what happens to me. Okay, maybe "like" is not the right word. I guess I can't really help it sometimes.*
So today took me, the heck, by surprise.
It began like any other. I woke up, got dressed, and left the house in a mini-hurry. (I was rushing, but only a little. I wasn't late, but almost).
Just to set the stage, keep in mind that today is Monday. Not just any Monday, but the Monday after the four-day Thanksgiving weekend...
Yeah, I know.
I was fine until about 9am. Then manure hit the fan. I can't really disclose the details, but suffice to say, it was horrible. And a few teardrops might have escaped my eyelids.
"I honestly did not need this right now," I thought as I took a walk during my break. But the Lord reminded me to trust that He was in charge, just like I had asked Him to.
"Lord, take control." I prayed again.
Fast forward to 5:45pm on my drive back home, I was feeling like crap.
Some upfront facts about me: when I am feeling an emotion other than happiness, I quiet down and ruminate. I don't talk to anyone, God included.
We can talk about how messed up this is later. ☺
You wanna know one of the things I love most about God, and the reason I am crazy about Him? He knows me and gives me exactly what I need, when I need it.
The Lord knew I didn't need a shoulder to cry on this evening. I needed to be told:
"You are feeling like this, because you were not in control of the situation today. Because things did not go the way you wanted them to. However, just because they did not go the way you wanted them to does not mean they did not go I wanted them to. After all, didn't you ask Me to take control?"
My response? I exclaimed, and subsequently burst into laughter. No joke.
Somehow God knew exactly what would make me laugh. He knew what would get through to me in my gloom and bring me back to Him in understanding.
And that thought just flipping blows my mind. Over and over. Over and over.
Darn, Lord, You are good. And I am head-over-heels crazy about You.
You know what's crazier? The fact that by the time I am done writing and posting this, there would be 10 more reasons to love Him.